Well I'm back.
A week in.
Dropping weight now, these pills that arrived 4 days ago are great but if I'm not careful i can loose sleep with them ( combining with caffeine pills ) Working out every day, arms are growing fast and I'm eating about once a day with a few granola bars as snacks, got about a 1400-1700 calorie intake; lots of carbs and bran with a outgoing of about 3800 calories.
I've had one slip up, and i eate a lot, binge eating some might say, i was so distressed after I did it I made myself sick( was already feeling sick at this point due to other circumstances but it wasn't difficult)
doing that is such a fucking cop out, never again will i binge eat and then throw it up, expensive waste of food and i had a soar throat! not to mention a fast way to get into a nasty routine.
Trance music is great on these pills ;P
I won't for a moment pretend that I'm not educated about these pills and that I'm not prepared for any negative outcome but i need this to work and I'm keeping my eye on the ball this time. by the way this is the longest I've ever been on a serious diet without cocking it up.
Still yet to get to the gym due to the fact that I'm still horrified by my own weight and the fact that people look at me like i'm a fucking hippo, which i am to be fair. This is not about lack of confidence It's more about being tired of who i am, hard to explain
Also a few friends bailed on me coming to the gym i'd have definetly gone if they went.
See you in a fortnight.