Redemption of a Glutten

eye thang-yow!

2007-11-16T01:00:33+01:00

About 3-4 days away from the 30 kilo mark.
66 pounds... Christ, feels so much easier than i expected. Infact it's almost like i'm cheating because i started SO overweight.

Within the space of about 3-4 hours 3 of my friends told me how slim i was looking, now normally i would gloat boast or " ho-ho-ho " like the jolly green giant, but today i said thanks and didn't enjoy it at all. Strange indeed.

Anywho i'm still eating my frozen-tupperware'd meals that i cook 2x a week, it's all basics really lots of veg veg based sauce and a few peppers and bash in some grilled/steamed chicken/turkey and bob's your uncle it's falling off me.

Speaking of cheating, this week i found out my friend was to return home and despite all the banter i was concerned that i still wont be able to keep up with him down the gym and he'll have a lare at me, ( see this all goes on inside my infants mind ) and basically blitz myself into oblivion trying to get a few more pounds off and twinged my knee. ( first exercise injury since a haggard bout of ' the stitches ' in the long distance run of sports day '98! )so then the day after i didn't goto the gym and instead bummed round my house all day.

Christ i'm boring i'll save you any more dribble and try to post significant events!

Bring on the tupperware.

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Muuurggh

2007-11-03T20:16:01+01:00

It's all got a bit boring now, I'm in a routine and it's boring as hell I'm trying to mix my foods up and stuff it's just I'm eating really standard stuff and I'm used to it but at this point more than any I've gotta look forward or the wagons going to leave me behind.

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Sack of potatoes

2007-10-15T15:00:25+02:00

25kg down, more to go but still it's a huge milestone for me.
sorry it's been so long since I've last written but I've not been at the computer so much ( which is a good thing! ) health wise i think that my body has finally realized that it's going to do what i tell it to and thats the bottom line. I thought i was doing ell at the gym when i jumped on the cross-trainer ( long distance skiing thing) and i could manage 5 mins, turns out i can manage a lot more than that, 30 minuites in fact which isn't bad at all as the calorie-o-meter but it in the 500-600 range for those 30 mins which is like 1/6th of a pound(in my poor estimation). I want to be able to pass a medical in January so if i manage to shift another 25+kg's that'll be no problem.

more updates to come.

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Exhaustion

2007-09-12T11:15:11+02:00

Christ I'm totally exhausted, It's days like today that kick moral right in the gonads when it's doing a impressive back-flip by taking you to the gym at 8am. Walked for about 25 minutes to get there and proceeded to do about 30 minutes Cardiovascular exercise then about 40 minutes of weight-training. After the weight-training my head was spinning and could only muster another 20 minutes on the bike before i was totally out of the game. This it was something to do with the 2 meals in two days thing then going to the gym on a fruity pot thing from the fridge. Feeling sick, got the shits, exhausted and throughly twated all over. eating some Italian carbo filled goodness now and I'm feeling a bit better. Going to take it easy now and force myself down the gym on Friday at 9.

ugh. Who idea was it again to be so hideously overweight?

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A month passes

2007-09-06T17:20:01+02:00

A month since the last update, I've been keeping up the dieting and trying hard, loosing about 2-3 kilo's a week; Finally got my ass into the gym today ( on my own! ) and made sure I didn't overdo it. Job interview tomorrow and I'm terrified because I'm in clothing limbo and either i go in there with a suit much to much large for me or just go in looking like a person that really has no interest in getting a job.

You know, the thing about trying to loose weight is that if you're in the right state of mind ( Cliché i know ) That all you can think of is how many calories in this or how much fat is in that, YES i crave kebabs but not as much as i hate putting up with people staring at me. So theres the choice Stay fat, unemployed and bored; It's time for a change.

Holy shit, I said I would give up cigarettes on the 1st of October ( *lights cigarette ) That is gonna be hell on earth, I mean give me a break theres no fucking calories in a cigarette!!! god damn (* lights cigarette )

I Didn't get a ticket to the local festival either, and 3 of my friends bands are playing there, and it's a big doo, Radio One covers the whole thing and it's a drug invested pit of gluttony and sex; I'd LOVE It. Damnation.

See ya soon.

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A Fortnight in.

2007-08-10T00:05:48+02:00

Welcome back.

been another week since i last updated, My weight training is advancing and yet I'm not dropping as much weight as i want too, think that's the catalyst for the realization of the fact it's going to take 6-8 months of extreme calorie counting and exercise to loose the weight.
Another think to note is the weight is going to leave massive massive gaping flaps of flesh behind. How unsightly.

God it's difficult.
Still not left the confides of my own training room to get to the gym, something about going on my own and begin scantily clad ;p ( don't like the idea of shorts and t shirt!.) Arms growing steadily

Cya soon guys.

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one weak

2007-08-02T20:02:39+02:00

Well I'm back.
A week in.

Dropping weight now, these pills that arrived 4 days ago are great but if I'm not careful i can loose sleep with them ( combining with caffeine pills ) Working out every day, arms are growing fast and I'm eating about once a day with a few granola bars as snacks, got about a 1400-1700 calorie intake; lots of carbs and bran with a outgoing of about 3800 calories.

I've had one slip up, and i eate a lot, binge eating some might say, i was so distressed after I did it I made myself sick( was already feeling sick at this point due to other circumstances but it wasn't difficult)
doing that is such a fucking cop out, never again will i binge eat and then throw it up, expensive waste of food and i had a soar throat! not to mention a fast way to get into a nasty routine.
Trance music is great on these pills ;P
I won't for a moment pretend that I'm not educated about these pills and that I'm not prepared for any negative outcome but i need this to work and I'm keeping my eye on the ball this time. by the way this is the longest I've ever been on a serious diet without cocking it up.
Still yet to get to the gym due to the fact that I'm still horrified by my own weight and the fact that people look at me like i'm a fucking hippo, which i am to be fair. This is not about lack of confidence It's more about being tired of who i am, hard to explain
Also a few friends bailed on me coming to the gym i'd have definetly gone if they went.

See you in a fortnight.

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Genesis.

2007-07-25T05:11:39+02:00

Hey.
Welcome to my blog.
Let me set a few truths before i begin, I'm a heavily overweight male; whom is educated and yet has no job. I'm an avid World of Warcraft geek and this hasn't helped the Fatty-fatty situation.
Last week one of my best friends whom i can compare myself to has left to OZ with a wallet full of money to playing for an professional rugby side, this event in itself has sparked a series of actions where I now am ready to fix this fucking mess of a life that I'm in. On the day before his departure he was giving away some Ephedrine tablets to his fitness buddies, and he offered me one or two, i took them striaght away and i haven't felt as good as i did after taking those tablets since i last consumed magic mushrooms, allow me to explain please. This tablet woke me up no longer was i going to drive at 200MPH to a heart attack at aged 32 i was going to sort this mess out.( A side note of this guy is that we grew up together and we were the fat strong bid smart kids at school, (If that is even a sub genre of a fattie!) And as we grew up together he scored a few marks higher than me in a certain test and attained a scholarship in a private school. Despite this we kept in touch throughout the years and i watched as he consistently changed into a determined man, loosing the weight, getting a fantastic education. Theres no doubt he was the more intelligent of the two of us, even to begin with but this doesn't detract from what he's done with his life, he recently went to war for us and i was to fat to help my country, I'm also to fat to be a policemen, a Prison guard or any of the things i would relish.
I don't think I'm jealous, in fact I'm sure that I'm not, I just want the self will and determination to fix the wrongs I've done to my body and to get on with my life. All things aside this situation has to be fixed as I for one, am tired of putting up with the ugly birds, fat jokes and unemployment.

I'm not here looking for sympathy and I couldn't care less if you read or not I'm more using this as a personal diary of innermost thoughts.

I'm going to use the day of his leaving as a point in time i can refer to, too show what I've done and if i slip back into the 3-4k calorie days i can take a look here and see the effort I've already placed into this to changing myself back into a human being.

Thursday the 19th of July 2007

The renewed Vigor and effort begins on this day, no longer will i lie in bed awake because I've not left the house and all i can think about is the fact I'm 22 and I've got nothing of the things i wanted, job apartment etc, Nothing worse than thinking about that stuff and I'm using it as a Carrot to a donkey to pull me through this. Guilty is like a cold bucket of water to the face, and we all know that doesn't help to sleep.

Food habits have gone out the window, 5 a day with 1.6k calorie limit mix in a bit of exercise and lets see what I can do.
BTW I'm not going to Weigh myself during this process. I do not want the "Oh fuck I've only lost a pound this week, I'll eat a fucking pizza then!" syndrome to kick in, if I'm eating, exercising and only drinking once a fortnight I've got nothing to be guilty about, and I'll be a healthier person inside and out.

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